Talking publicly about my emotions, fears and doubts embarrasses me as much as the idea of taking a selfie and uploading it on the social network. I don’t know if it’s because of the idea rooted by social pressure that people should only share their positive feelings, happy moments (these beautiful Instagram pictures of the last holidays, being in the first row at the concert, snapshots of participating in something exclusive/limited etc..
But someone needs to start the conversation.
And if I am to reach like-minded, foxily ambitious and go-getter people, I need to be brave and expose myself to the edge of quasi-vulnerability. Only then these people can get to know me better even without personally knowing me. They may want to connect with me by finding a common ground and do things TOGETHER.
If you saw me, you know that I’m an extreme extrovert. (Happy go lucky!) I love people and I take the energy and joy from being in the centre of the attention. I like seeing things happening out of my initiative and most of the times – just as I want them (Some friends affectionately call me with the names of the worst political dictators).
I can easily break the silence between the group of strangers being stuck in the elevator and make people feel comfortable.
But somehow, for far too long I was politically-correct and compliant for people outside my social circle. The idea of doing this blog and stripping myself bare has been in my mind for long but each time I was writing a draft post, I was coming back to it the next day just to decide not to publish it.
I always compare myself to the best. I am very critical with myself and I’m never satisfied, hence each of my written thoughts felt to me like a hoary old chestnut – things which have been said before by others and I am certainly not in this business to reinvent the wheel.
Simply speaking, I have been a social coward. Just like most of you. (Obviously some people do not have a need to share their lives with the strangers, but I’m talking about those who do and yet, they fight their wants against).
If I ever want to become a true leader and a successful entrepreneur, I need to state clearly and loudly what do I stand for (ie. at the current moment – as I know that everything, opinions, feelings etc., change depending on the stimuli and thrilling events that face us with time) and what I don’t approve. I may get more enemies or my boss reaching that site and reading my blog… but hey, they say be different or be forgotten.
There are universal type of people, who are liked/approved by everyone.
I am not one of them.